Beginning of the school year blues...

For you who know me you can vouch that I do not like change. I like things that are familiar. The new school year is always difficult for me there is so much change and unknown.  It truly throws me off. I am am always anxious with teacher assignments...   This is even more difficult with Jaxon with his hearing loss. Not only do I worry if they are going to be a good teacher, are they going to help foster learning but are they going to follow his 504 plan, are they going to use his FM system, are they going to be sensitive to his extra needs. So far the past 2 years have been a bumpy start assuring that the school meets Jaxons needs.  We have definitely not made friends along the way with the principal.  The principal is one of the few people that I have a complete dislike for (other families with children with hearing loss have had similar experiences so it's not all mother bear). Honestly we will request something and it almost feels like she does the exact opposite.   There have been many tears of frustration along the way.  I have been thinking a lot about this lately. How much do you push?  At some point do you just say .... Well this is good enough even though it's not.    Do you stop pushing to make sure you do not have negative consequences for your other children. For example Ashlin did not make the gifted and talented program this year..... The selection I realize is very subjective.... Yet I cant help but wonder did I hurt her chances by pushing a little too much for Jaxon?  These fears have been running through my mind (especially when we heard from a reliable source that she should have been placed in GT & they were going to see if they could make it happen).  So if you see our home up for sale we are not leaving Conway.....we are just moving to a new school that is more supportive of students with hearing loss. Who am I kidding.......I will repeat the first sentence again....I dont like change so for now I will continue to fight the familiar battle and pray I am making the right choices for my precious thundering trio.